And so it is a new year, a new beginning, a new decade. I found this amazing quote today that exactly fits where I am in life. Here it is:
There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
I love that. Isn’t it the truth? When I left teaching a few years ago it was a hard decision to make, but the stress of staying was greater than the stress of leaving a secure job with good pay. Since teaching full time, I have grown and I would like to think blossomed as well. Photography feeds my spirit and my soul and gives me such satisfaction and pleasure. And fun, I have never had so much fun while getting paid to do something. This last year has also been one of great change with the separation of myself and my husband. And the quote fits that as well. When something becomes too tight and painful, it is time to take a risk. And to me the stress of staying in the marriage was far greater than the stress involved in leaving.
So for 2010, I will try to always be mindful of doing what I can and need to do to blossom. For me this will include:
Going to a photo workshop in another city (not yet decided on)
Going on one major trip (also not sure about that one)
Growing my business
Keeping up with bookkeeping (Not my thing, will need to have a lot of chocolate and red wine rewards for that one)
And accepting that I will continue to gain and lose weight and not beat myself up about it.
I have also decided that I will stay young. Yeah, sounds funny, but age really has a lot to do with perception. My grandmother, who died at age 88, thought that she was old and dying for as long as I can remember. She was always saying things like, “If I’m still alive when you get married (she was), or “I probably won’t live to see your baby born”, (she did) etc, etc. So I plan to live and work and blossom for many years to come.
So those are my thoughts for 2010. I hope that you all think about what you need to do in order to blossom. It really is never too late, as long as you are living and breathing, to do what will make you happy. So go for it!!